Are you tired of feeling like you have to keep everything under control, or run away from your problems? So was I.
I still remember being 17, feeling like it was my responsibility to keep the house running after my mum moved out. I tried to keep everything clean, everyone fed, and everything organized, but it led to burnout and emotional breakdowns. I felt like a failure, and the guilt of leaving only made things worse.
For years, I repeated this pattern. I tried to hide my imperfections, then break down and run away. I did this over and over again, moving from state to state, job to job, and relationship to relationship.
I tried to escape with alcohol, drugs, and sex, but nothing could help me escape from what was going on inside my own head.
But eventually, I realized I couldn't keep running from the darkness inside me. I had to find a way to shine a light on it.